A STORY OF "FEELINGS" AND HOW POWERFUL "TRUSTING YOUR FEELINGS" ARE TO UNDERSTAND. Martial Arts Always has that Question of "why the Question of why" is important. This story is about the why. I went to a friends house the other night to relax, and to sit by a fire "to have some fun" with this friend of mine named Tim. His wife named "Marjorie" and there little boy named "J" also came down "into the woods" to sit by the fire with us! After Marjorie walked down the hill into the woods with the little boy named "J", they sat down and told me of a story about when the last time her and "J" went camping down in the woods. Marjorie told me they went into the woods, it was about the same time of day, "just getting dark" and they set up the tent to camp out that night. After setting up the tent, they sat in the chairs to enjoy their night in the woods. Sitting there they noticed one or two very big bee's flying by, there was food so they just hoped the big bee's would soon fly away. After a few minutes went by, there was a few more and she tried to "shoe them away" ("swing at them" to make them leave), one of the bee's landed on her and bit her on the arm. After that Marjorie and "J" ran in the tent (to get away from the bee's) but after they got in the tent "J" said there was one in the tent and "dove" into his sleeping bag "to hide from the bee"! Marjorie told him not to bee scared, they are on the outside of the tent trying to get in, "that is what you are seeing"! Just then, she noticed "there was a big bee inside the tent", (it was now dark and Marjorie was scared), "J" was berried in his sleeping bag so Marjorie picked "J" up (inside the sleeping bag) opened the tent and ran uphill "in the dark" through the woods, all the way home ! ("UNDERSTANDING this was the first time for them back in the woods"), I explained to "J" and Marjorie the big bees "like the ones in the woods that attacked them" were the ones that lived in the ground, and because it was just turning dark they probably were flying back to their home (their hole in the ground) and you may of covered the bee's hole in the ground with your tent! I told them next time look before you set up your tent, "the bee's were probably shoeing you away" because you covered their home, they wanted to go home! Marjorie said she was so scared she thought of nothing else but to get "J" home safe, "she was amazed of how strong her body was that night" (because of what happened)! I told her about how when you do something "because of your feelings" you go straight forward "with how you think" using your true feeling of power within yourself, and have no fear! After that, Marjorie told me about her mom! (Marjorie is a real animal lover, they have dogs, cats, and Marjorie's favorite is her horses, "and the pony", "It's in Marjorie's family history") Marjorie told me, and "J", (sitting in front of the fire) "her mom had a pony" and one day her mom lifted the back end of her pony up (to help it get the pony out of a fence) she said her mom gained lots of strength because of her feelings "to help save her pony" because her mom loved her pony! Marjorie told us that her moms pony wayd about 600 pounds, and she was amazed her mom was able to lift the pony "back end up" to lift its back legs out of a fence! Next - we talked about how strong people can get (because of their feelings) and how strong people were back in cave man days, back in time "when there was dinosaurs", people use to cook on a open fire like this and also use it to stay warm, - than I say like a cave man, " FIRE, GOOD ! ("J" likes this "because he likes dinosaurs" and were sitting in front of a fire, and we are telling stories, "in the woods")! "J" smiles from ear to ear, with both ears pointing straight out "lessening - sitting with great wonder"! "Tim smiles" and we start talking about how man started, backed in the cave man days, how man has built himself to be something meaningful, not being so ruthless and mean! Tim then asked me if I was religious, and asked me my thoughts on "who I thought Jesus was"! I told Tim my feelings were : Jesus was probably one of the first people "who stood for goodness" and was lynched or killed by other mean people. I told Tim the bad people probably wrapped thorns around Jesus head to try to make others feel Jesus "thinking" is wrong, and will get you killed. Than I said the mean people nailed Jesus to a cross to set a example not to think like him! I told Tim, "I think like many others", "there were many cups to chose from" which is the real cup! I looked at "J" and said FIRE, GOOD - his smile was big! Me and Tim joked about how men use to say "WOMEN"?, "how men use to act" - "now we need to get their approval", (the humor makes me and Tim laugh, but Marjorie did not think it was funny!) We talk about are differences, "from when we lived back in cave man days" how man was ruthless and more like a animal, "again" I looked at "J" and said ; FIRE" - "GOOD" , " just to see that big smile of "J"s ! Sitting by a fire is very relaxing for me, I enjoy it a lot! As I sat back and look at the fire, "I saw what looks to me like "a fish", so I ask Marjorie (and "J") if they ever look at things and see faces! "J"s smile went away fast, then Marjorie told me he was scared of ghosts, that really scares "J"? I told "J", "you get scared because you don't understand why you feel this"! I told "J", this is just a memory your brain has from all the different people "who made you", all the way back to cave man days! I told him sometimes you see things "but this helps you understand all the many different things your brain has seen" in life! I told "J", did you know back in caveman days "they would throw fish on the fire" and let the skin burn on the outside, then they would take it off the fire and peel off the burnt part, - inside the burnt part of the fish would be nice juicy fish meat to eat! Maybe I see a fish in the fire because caveman use to eat fish in a fire! I showed the front of the log that looked like a fish head, you could clearly see the eye and mouth! Both Marjorie and "J" looked at the log "and both said", it looks like a bird head, "because of the mouth". I told them "to me" it looked like a fish - "because the log looks like the body" of a fish! They both looked at it and said "WoW", it does look like a fish! (it made "J" feel good to understand - seeing something you don't understand can help you learn about different things! Than I told "J", I must be seeing, "thinking" and feeling "in my mind" we're cooking a fish "like the cave men did", on the fire! I told him : When you see these different things that scare you, it's your subconscious imagination, it helps you learn - "than I looked at him and said" were cooking fish cave man style ; "FIRE", GOOD, "J" smile and "lit up" as bright as the fire! "J' realized what bothered him so much", "his imagination", it was "his feeling" of not knowing, "or understanding he was born with memory, "he himself", he just never saw it yet, he needed understanding so there was no fear! Tim had enough of what I was talking about and got up and poked at the fire with a stick "he knocked over the fish", both Marjorie and Jay yelled, don't do that - O - you knocked the fish over! We all had a good time that night ; "J" sat next to me and learned how to sharpen a point on his stick (like the cave man, on a rock) for cooking marshmallows outside ; Marjorie learned how much power her feelings, and "J"s really had ; I learned about the "powerful feelings" people do have, "about the importantance of opening up your feelings", "telling people about different things you believe in", "for the understanding "and" knowing, "who is good", "who you are", what makes you feel good, who cares to help you "not to hurt", people feel a lot! Many "good" people (me) have no "Trust" in the Court system"? I see one lawyer in court only caring to fight to help protect the one person "who pays them", the other doesn't?, no trust, there's fear - feelings? Feelings are very deep in people, some stay scared of the dark, some are very scared of spiders, ect... Understanding Fear "is" - "Trusting", "Understanding", "Caring", "loving", "Feelings are your Freedom"! "Helping someone is to" " Not Control Others", to understand their fears and problems, or to understand what bothers their feelings and senses. I tell people how I feel because it helps me, - Example; "I like helping others", when someone else is not into helping ("their just into greed and don't really care about helping others) your senses will know if they do not care, most will not talk open about your interest "if they disagree", ("they hide things from you"), "YOU FEEL IT", "or sense it"! These are the red flags that pop up in your brain "if something is not right", they are the senses that control your feelings. "If someone can not open up to another", it's because they fear them "their interest are not the same interest", your senses say you do not like their feelings! "Your feelings answer all your questions in life! Trusting is about being honest, talking about how you feel, example - If a association wants to take over another association without fully trying to understand "or to help ", it will show no caring or trust! If someone only shows interested in taking control of a association "only because of greed or power", it would show no respect for the people who put their heart into building the association, it shows the other people (or persons) "they are only trying to control us" and are not caring about are peoples feelings", - fear? Most people want to build a better class (a better race) for their people, "without opening up your feelings" to "understand" how others feel, it will show the person does not care about what the other "feels",- "feelings is trusting" that someone's caring, - or they will "fear the other will not care", want to steal from them, or hurting them? I find out what bothers someone's feelings, taking their fear away? - "Trust & caring" + "Helping someone understand feelings" helps them understand!, "helps them learn"!, this takes fears away? "Feelings are important" "feelings controls fear", "feelings control you" "your reactions", "actions", "powers" and your "strengths"! "Martial Artists "help people", "we also feel"! Bill Bartolone 11/15/2003

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